Sunday, April 19, 2009

Stay on you feet.

Oh okay! Man oh man life has been hard for me lately, but when is life easy? So I have been pretty much bumbing around on the streets with no money, staying with a different friend everynight. I have been making it work for the most part. I am trying to still look for a job any job that will pay me enough to atleast get a place that I can pay rent for and get food in my belly. So I spent a week in vegas staying with my friend Bree. I met Bree at Kolob, she was so nice to let me stay there. She fed me, put a roof over my head, and gave me something to do. But I couldnt stay there forever, because that wouldnt be fare to Bree for me to just bumb off of her. But my car is broken down in vegas so for a bit I was homeless, carless, and phoneless. Life is slowly picking up for me, I got my phone turend back on.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

This time last year

I can not believe that it has been a year since I was rushed to the hospital because my water broke. It was a crazy time of year. I still remember calling Ann to come pick me up and take me to the hospital. When we got there I had to rap Noah's blanket around my legs to keep the water from dripping. And the hole time I was still scared that I just was peeing my pants and my water didn't really break. (lol even though it was pretty obvious.) I was in so much pain until they gave me the epidural. After that it was smooth sailing. I just listen to Cold Play on the Ipod untill the nurse came in and told me I was ready to push.

When Zoe came out the first thing I said was that she looked like an Alien, and sounded like a baby Dino Sour. She just made the tiniest little cry when she came out, and that was it. Brandon was supposed to cut the cord but he froze. He looked as though he was about to pass out.

Holding Zoe in my arms felt so good, she had been in my stomach for so long and I was able to hold her and see that she was a beautiful healthy baby. I was so tired but I did not want to sleep a minute because I knew my time with her was so short. It was stressful being in the hospital because Brandon still didnt not want to give her up for adoption and we were fighting about it till the very last minute. But the time came and we signed the papers and she was taken home by her new mommie and daddie. It was a happy but sad time. I have never had to do something so hard in my life.

What a year it has been since Zoe has been born. Anywhere from my sister dieing to Brandon dieing to getting my little baby up for adoption. Wow!

I am blessed to know that Zoe has been in a good family with good parents to raise and teach her. And I know that she will always be loved by so many people.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

oh and here are just a few photos that i took with the most fun photographer her name is Evelyn Eslava. I had a raelly fun time doing these. We took them down town SLC a few weeks ago.
Okay. I am totaly new at this bloging thing. Well at this point in my life, i just want to talk about what I am up to and what is new in my life. I am living in st. george Utah just outside the the st. george area called Washington. I live with two roommates and one of their boy friends. They are really cute girl and eassy to get along with. I work at hollister on the sales floor, it doesnt pay much so I am really sturggling to pay all my bills. The reasoned I moved to St. George was to work and live for my older brother Nick but that did not work out well. After I moved all my stuff down he fired me and told me to find another place to live. But I have been slowly getting back on my feet but getting more and more in depbt. I am currently working on finding new friends to hang out with, it is hard at the time because my cell phone has just been turned off and any friends i do make i cant call. Well thats it for now, I guess. I will try this thing again another day and see how it goes. Wish me luck to another boaring day trying to get through life one minute at a time.